I had my great time so far. 4 months plus, roughly. I cannot say it is my favorite period so far. A lot of things had happened yet there are still more things to be done and enjoyed at this moment. It made me wild and sometimes lost my track of time. But I am still grateful that time is still ticking as I cruise my boat of life without knowing where will the wind blows to.
Life would never be rough if it rolls accordingly to our wills which most of the time it does not. That is why making decisions is the hardest part in our lives, and I believe it is for everybody. Every decision we make, especially big one, molds our lives and would eventually allows us to foresee our future footing. There is no turning back, yes I agree. Even if you feel you manage to make a 180 turn, you can never reset the time.
For now, I could sense the wind is changing its direction. It smells from the west and it is so tempting. It is a hard decision to make. This time, it is not the same as being a student where there will be long holidays between the semesters, goofing around with your mates, assignments and reports submissions and wake up late on Saturdays. I feel so divided right now. It is not like I want to decline the calls. I do have the will to experience new things. It is just that I still have unsettled matters here at home plus not being selfish to myself, but I could feel the need of my presence here.
An answer as simple as "YES" would be enough for me to get through this part and there goes the countdown again. It is hard to tell how much time I have left as they are very subjective and I need more time to settle one particular thing which is (find it yourself).
Anyway, I am currently busy with the Pelayanan Ibadah dan Seni (PIS) 10th Anniversary. I am creating promotional videos for the event. It is a church thing by the way.
I am still hoping that my call will be in this lovely island of Borneo. Hmm.
Till then people.
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